So if the end of The Loop on RW felt like the last day of summer camp, it seems fitting that this fresh start in the 'new' Loop should feel like the first few days of a new school year. Everyone is all excited to see each other, catching up on what we all did over the summer break, checking out who is wearing the latest new fashions...
I was never one to be in just one clique in high school, or college for that matter - I kind of got along with pretty much everyone. Thank god social media wasn't a thing back then though. Kids could be mean enough in person, I don't envy the youth of today having to deal with cyber bullying and the such. So imagine my surprise when I realize my reaction to having been unfriended on FB - by a few people - all of which were/are Loopsters. At first I was all like . But then I was all pffffffffffft - whatevs. It's kind of embarrassing though - I'm approaching the big five-oh soon, and I feel like I've reverted back to being a teenager and my feelings are all hurt 'cuz I didn't get a Valentine from everyone in class.
Now, don't get me wrong - I know I've never met a majority of you, and those I have met in person were way back at the first Philly LoopFest and it was only for a few hours. So you really don't know me from Adam. But I guess when I dropped out of sight after my mom passed away and my feet issues stopped me from running, the fact that I wasn't contributing led to that click of the button. I know there were times when my only posts were on the negative side, but hey - it's what I was going through at the time. I'm not one of those people who only shares the 'unicorn pooping sunshine' stuff in life. That's not real life. Not mine anyways. (p.s. - who else now thinks we need a unicorn-pooping-sunshine emoji?!?)
I don't want others to feel like they can't be real with me. If you're having a shitty day, say it. It won't rain on my parade. Sometimes a good old fashioned rant is necessary. And it doesn't necessarily mean that I'm looking for any response. I don't need to be coddled. And sometimes, quiet is just as good. Maybe sitting by myself in the cafeteria and reading a book during lunch is just what I need at the particular time. It doesn't mean that you have to try to come over and cheer me up, but it also doesn't mean that I want to be avoided or not be friends any more.
Maybe I'm just being childish - WAH - someone unfriended me - boo hoo. And if so, then so be it. But who doesn't feel that way now and again? I'm just one of those people who says it out loud. By now that shouldn't surprise most of you. Old age = less filter and less given about it. (Holy moly - the emojis are big enough that I don't even need my glasses to see 'em!)
And now I have no idea where in the heck I was going with this whole thing. What can I say - I'm blonde and I'm not getting any younger.
I guess what I'm trying to say (besides thanks for hanging in there if you read this far) is that I'm not going anywhere. I may not comment, etc. on every little thing, and I can't guarantee I won't disappear from time to time. But I'm also not going to apologize for it and I'm certainly not going to let myself feel offended (anymore) if someone decides to 'pull the trigger' because of it.
With that being said - can I sit with you guys at lunch today?