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I think I might be falling in love with running again.  Actually, with exercise in general.  So, I guess with me.  I'm falling in love with me again.

Running has really sucked for a long, long time.  And you know how that goes - it sucks, so you listen to excuses to not do it.  Then it sucks more, so you avoid it more, and so on.  Sprinkle that with back problems every time I started making progress and just life in general.  Whatever, I talked about all of that on my last bloop.

I kind of knew that I needed to go to the gym to work on my back problem but I found it really hard to actually do.  I wanted to want to go to the gym again.  I wanted to enjoy my time there.  But I just couldn't get it started.  I couldn't make myself want it bad enough.  Discipline is a muscle and mine was just as soft and flabby as my ass.

And running was a struggle.  I went from being down to run whenever, for however far and whatever pace my RBs were going, to struggling to keep up, struggling to enjoy myself and struggling to not stop.  I missed it and I'd get these little gems here and there - runs that reminded me of how running used to be - before it would go right back to sucking.

I honestly thought about leaving running behind.  Deciding that it was something I had done while I did it but that time was gone.  Maybe I would revert to my old insomniac smoker self.  Maybe it was time to box everything up and look for the next phase of life.

Then I had a parting of ways with someone and literally that day, that moment, it all came back.  All I wanted to do in the whole world was to go for a run.  And it felt good.  And I went to the gym and it felt like home.  There was no more trying and wanting to want, it was like I stepped back into myself.  I reverted to my larky athletic self.  

I feel optimistic about the future again.  I don't care so much about pace atm, I just want that feeling.  When you’re running and just running and your body is digging it and the endorphins are flowing and the miles are ticking by and all is right in the world.  

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Yay! Glad you are loving exercise again!

I never thought I’d be a gym rat but I LOVE it!

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2 hours ago, ocrunnergirl said:

Yay! Glad you are loving exercise again!

I never thought I’d be a gym rat but I LOVE it!

I used to love it then I stopped going.  Now I’m hopefully remembering how and what I liked about going.

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"Discipline is a muscle and mine was just as soft and flabby as my ass. "

Awesome quote, and I'm sure a lot of people can relate. I hear ya. As I get older and sorer, it gets harder to get that good mojo going. But it does show up often enough. So far. Hope the good feelings keep lasting for ya.

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The thing about running is that it will always be there when you are ready to return!

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I've had a lot of those feelings the last few weeks, but that's normal in weeks 12-15 of training. And in summer! Don't even get me started on the heat/humidity. Then, there are other times when I realize that sometimes running is all I have, so I better hang onto it like grim death. Athletic Liz vs. Insomniac Smoker Liz - this is really a no-brainer.

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On 9/18/2019 at 7:31 PM, BANGLE said:

"Discipline is a muscle and mine was just as soft and flabby as my ass. "

Awesome quote, and I'm sure a lot of people can relate. I hear ya. As I get older and sorer, it gets harder to get that good mojo going. But it does show up often enough. So far. Hope the good feelings keep lasting for ya.

Thanks!  Me, too!  I hope it helps tone my butt, too.

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On 9/18/2019 at 9:35 PM, SIbbetson said:

The thing about running is that it will always be there when you are ready to return!

True story!

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On 9/19/2019 at 11:49 AM, Dave said:

I've had a lot of those feelings the last few weeks, but that's normal in weeks 12-15 of training. And in summer! Don't even get me started on the heat/humidity. Then, there are other times when I realize that sometimes running is all I have, so I better hang onto it like grim death. Athletic Liz vs. Insomniac Smoker Liz - this is really a no-brainer.

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Thanks.  I'm trying to hang on too.

Idk... other Liz is a lot of fun...

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2 hours ago, CompulsiveRunner said:

I'm glad running was there for you when you were ready!

Thanks.  It feels really good.

Hey!!  How are things?  I almost put out an apb for you in the group!

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1 hour ago, Slow_Running said:

Yay!  Liz is back!  All is right in the running world again.

Hahaha!!!  Thanks!!!  We'll see how back I am in three weeks!  (I'm running the half on nothing but hubris and habit!)

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