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Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results

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Insanity or hopeful determination? I'm not sure where my repeated tries at properly training for a marathon fits, but I'm over it. Time and time again I fail at this, and each time I still try to convince myself that this is what I really want, and you can do it this time.

I'm over stressing week after week that I'm not hitting the numbers. I'm over worrying about whether or not I'm going to get so far behind that I could injure myself if I keep going. I'm over trying to hold this standard over myself week after week. I guess it's just not for me - or at least right now.

So, I'm still running the NJ 26.2, but I'm going to get there by doing what I can with the time I have left. After that, I'm done with marathons and anything beyond. Until I can get my shit together, I'm just going to run, workout, and run shorter races. I still have my goal of one race each month, and I plan to do that.

This isn't a pity party. This is trying to enjoy what I love doing without stressing out about it anymore. 

I'll write when I feel like it.

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I can so relate to this! I promised myself when I signed up for Phoenix that I wouldn't bail on a single run and I didn't but the struggle on the long runs was tough. Yesterday I did 8 x 400s fast on the elliptical with lifting in between ( a Crossfit inspired workout) and there was no struggle at all.

Do what you love and don't beat yourself up.

See you in NJ

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Yes, do what's fun. I 've been having the same conversations with myself. I just told the wife "this may be my last marathon". Like I do EVERY time! 

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We're runners, aren't we? There's no rule that says you have to do marathons to be a runner, and you certainly don't need to be in marathon training for bloop. Keep the joy and share it.

I'd like you to the bring the braids back, though. 9_9

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Marathon training always brings anxiety into my life. I can never stop thinking about how far do I need to run this week and what kind of speedwork do I have to do and what else is on the calendar and what's the weather going to be like and where am I doing my long one and what time do I have to get up and shit I hate carrying water and how am I going to fit 3+ hours of running into the weekend and am I going to hurt myself and and and and …. GAH. I like the training, but hate the obsession …  I hope you will give yourself permission to enjoy your workouts, no matter what they're geared toward. 

 

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Yo, I feel your struggle. I was feeling the same about doing the full pig in May. I saw the schedule and started getting anxious about a plan I hadn’t even started. Why? Cause probably it’s natural to do so. But here’s my question that settled it for me- shouldn’t  running conform to my life?  Why am I spending so much physical and mental energy trying to fit in this very narrow, specific timeline? And for what? What do I gain by blindly trying to check every box and dot every i if this generic training plan? Injury? Overtraining? Self hate? Run what you want and what feels right to you. I don’t give an eff if you ever run another 26.2, you’re still cool no matter what Sweet Mags says.

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21 minutes ago, CompulsiveRunner said:

Marathon training always brings anxiety into my life. I can never stop thinking about how far do I need to run this week and what kind of speedwork do I have to do and what else is on the calendar and what's the weather going to be like and where am I doing my long one and what time do I have to get up and shit I hate carrying water and how am I going to fit 3+ hours of running into the weekend and am I going to hurt myself and and and and …. GAH. I like the training, but hate the obsession …  I hope you will give yourself permission to enjoy your workouts, no matter what they're geared toward. 

 

YES! I know it's not supposed to be easy but it's not supposed to be this hard. I know I'll likely run more marathons, but now is not the time. I hope to see you soon and I hope you are doing well!

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17 minutes ago, RonSwansonsStache said:

Yo, I feel your struggle. I was feeling the same about doing the full pig in May. I saw the schedule and started getting anxious about a plan I hadn’t even started. Why? Cause probably it’s natural to do so. But here’s my question that settled it for me- shouldn’t  running conform to my life?  Why am I spending so much physical and mental energy trying to fit in this very narrow, specific timeline? And for what? What do I gain by blindly trying to check every box and dot every i if this generic training plan? Injury? Overtraining? Self hate? Run what you want and what feels right to you. I don’t give an eff if you ever run another 26.2, you’re still cool no matter what Sweet Mags says.

YAS! So many questions. Sweet Mags can say what she wants about me. I'm immune to the kitty shit talking ;) I just see it as sweetness. xoxo Mags

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When I think about marathon training, I often hear in my head this Maria Bamford bit on what she calls "violent optimism":

"My husband and I were talking about Diana Nyad. She swam from Cuba to Florida; a 1,000 miles; open water; without a shark cage. He said, 'Oh, man, I could never do that!'”

"I said, 'Yes, you could!'

"'Maria, she was an Olympic swimmer! She attempted five times! She almost died twice! I’m not a good swimmer! ... I also really don’t want to do it.' "

Many times, I really don't want to do it.

 

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This is so relatable. I used to think that since I wasn't a super fast runner, I had to prove that I was a runner by doing longer distances (10 mile, half marathon). Then I realized I was trying to appease, disconnected from some snobby Loopsters that only cared about speed and got back to the joy that came from simply getting out there. I keep going back and forth about whether or not I want to do another marathon this year or give myself a different challenge, such as a triathlon, seeing how fast I can get in the 5K or maybe doing a super hard 10K. It's the adventure and satisfaction that I try to focus on, which has been a pretty good strategy.

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Runners are all crazy. Something always hurts, our laundry pile smells like a slaughter house, our cars are full of half empty water bottles and granola bar wrappers, and we have shoes that are somehow ALWAYS FUCKING DAMP.

The key is to be Andy Kaufman crazy, not Ted Kaczynski crazy. Do what you gotta do.

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Good mentality. If you’re not enjoying it and it’s causing anxiety/stress then what’s the point? Doing marathons isn’t objectively better than any other distance, some people are just snobs and have over-glorified the distance. Run what you want the way you want and enjoy life. 

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