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The Return


Carissa Liebowitz

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Isn’t it great when non-runners look at you crazy for being excited to run? We pretend to be annoyed by their silly comments.

I don’t even like to drive that far!

I only run when something is chasing me!

I run… to the refrigerator!

Everyone laughs and then we go on about our respective lives. But I imagine that most runners secretly hold in the pride they feel when they hear such things.

Pride because of the joy it brings us. Pride because of the sense of accomplishment we feel. Pride because of how it influences us to make better decisions in other areas of our lives (usually).

We wonder if they are envious of our physical abilities or do they actually think we are certifiably nuts?

I had this notion a few years ago that I was never going to run a 100 mile race. That just seemed, well, ludicrous! My body was just not the type that could manage to finish something like that, let alone train.

Yet, here we are.

And the more I listen to stories of people accomplishing amazing things in running, the more I believe that it really is possible to do things we never thought we’d do.

I have been lucky to follow the journeys of so many fantastic runners. We won’t always get faster and we may not always run further, but challenging ourselves is what (in my opinion) sets us apart from the hobby joggers.

I have no big races to report on. No big workouts to share. Assuming I’m playing the comparison game of course. Comparing to other runners. Comparing to 2017 Carissa.

But I just completed a huge workout! 4 miles in the rain. I was thinking about my metatarsal and my tibia probably 80% of the run. Worrying if my gait was okay. Worrying if my cadence was okay. In a constant flux of am I doing enough or too much?

And it may seem silly to say in the midst of all this worrying that I was somehow also really, really happy.

It was humid and drizzling after a thunderstorm rolled through. I almost drove home, but decided very last minute to stop at the track. The high school football team was pouring from the main building to the stadium and I almost bailed at the thought of sharing the space when them.

But they were getting in their $50,000 cars and driving home, leaving me to the track by myself. I laughed a bit thinking how perfect the conditions were if I were at the top of my game. But why couldn’t I appreciate it while coming back?

So I fired up my Spotify “Comeback” playlist and laced up my new shoes labeled “Nike Pegasus Turbo The Comeback Shoe” and walked 400 meters before I started to run.

You know how a summer rain run almost feels like you getting away with something? Like it’s a crazy little secret that’s yours. And you don’t want to tell too many people how awesome it is because what makes it great is that you usually have the running space to yourself?

Yeah, so I’m acutely aware of the possibility that someone might see the shit-eating grin on my face as I shuffle around and around. There are the moments that I’m able to forget. I get lost in my thoughts briefly and when I’m jolted back to reality, I’m almost angry that I slipped back to consciousness. Because those lost-in-my-thoughts moments are great on any run, but they are especially great when all I can think about is my stupid injury.

The rain picks up a bit and I look around the empty field, not at all surprised that I’m the only person in my vantage point.

And I’m kind of happy that no one is in on my little secret today. At some point, I realized running circles in the humid rain alone might sound awful. But I’m lucky I’ve returned to my happy place.

 

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The fact that you're going to run a 100-mile race doesn't mean it's NOT ludicrous to do it... 

I totally know what you mean about the summer rain! I'm really sad that we haven't had much good rain at all this summer; just the hot sticky humidity, and then thunderstorms only when I'm *not* running 😕 I can only think of 1 or 2 good rainy runs in the last few months. Sigh. 

What do you think of the Peg Turbos?? Roger's become quite the Nike pusher lately... But I love my VF4%'s so that does make me curious about Nike's other performance shoes. 

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I needed something like this today. Still getting over how I felt on Tuesday. It's rained a lot here this summer, so maybe my first one will be a wet one as well.

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4 hours ago, Dave said:

I needed something like this today. Still getting over how I felt on Tuesday. It's rained a lot here this summer, so maybe my first one will be a wet one as well.

I was beginning to lose hope that I would never run without pain again. And while it's not a linear process, I do finally feel confident full recovery is possible. 

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4 hours ago, HotPinkSneakers said:

The fact that you're going to run a 100-mile race doesn't mean it's NOT ludicrous to do it... 

I totally know what you mean about the summer rain! I'm really sad that we haven't had much good rain at all this summer; just the hot sticky humidity, and then thunderstorms only when I'm *not* running 😕 I can only think of 1 or 2 good rainy runs in the last few months. Sigh. 

What do you think of the Peg Turbos?? Roger's become quite the Nike pusher lately... But I love my VF4%'s so that does make me curious about Nike's other performance shoes. 

really like the Peg Turbos. They are far more plush than the VF and I like that the sole has more splay. I thought that they cushy upper and tongue might be bothersome, but I find it to be a very comfortable fit. I can certainly tell the carbon plate is missing, but for road training shoes, I think it's good that I could just reserve the VF for racing or speedwork. The VF upper is so lightweight and the soles are stacked and narrow that I find they feel a bit unwieldy sometimes. The Turbos feel way more secure. 

In other words, they are awesome and I like them. 😉

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We are on a very similar journey. Journey? Maybe I'll sing some of that while celebrating my next race completed.

Your font selection makes me think you are writing a screenplay.

I'm about to try them Turbos this week!

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