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A Race I Can’t Win – Me vs. Last Year Me

RunEatRalph

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38280685982_1fa9ffc600_o.jpg This guy is the source of my misery. I think I hate him.

Hello and happy hump day to you! My July running results are in and I finished with 96 miles, down 1 mile from June. Why didn’t I run 4 more and get an even 100?!

I started August off with a 6 mile run that included 4 pretty fast miles. The splits were 7:21, 7:13. 7:19 and 7:17. I’m happy with those times, but a little unhappy with just how hard I had to work to get them.

Back in November, I was dropping 10 mile tempos at slightly better paces than today’s and with relative ease. Yes, the weather was substantially better, but still. I know this is crying over spilled milk (or torn Achilles tendons), but it’s really hard not to have negative feelings about losing what I’d worked so hard to gain.

I’m progressing and I know that. I have great friends that are encouraging me and pushing me to get back. I want to race and I don’t want to race. I know there’s joy to be found in just showing up and experiencing races, but that’s not how I’ve been wired. I need to compete. I compete with other runners. I compete with myself. I PR or blow up trying. I can’t compete with last year Randy right now and it frustrates me.

I’m hoping that some of you can relate and maybe you’ll know what to say. For now, I’ll keep grinding. I’ll keep waking up before 5am and swimming through the swampfest that is summertime. I’m sure a time will come when I don’t have to work so hard for a fast pace. I haven’t lost hope yet.

Thanks for letting me whine and complain. It’s good to have a place to do that. Maybe I can compare myself to 6 months ago me instead. I’m WAY faster than that guy!

img_3182 Do you even run, Bro?
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Whine away. I'd like to be as fast as I was in 1980.

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13 minutes ago, Dave said:

Whine away. I'd like to be as fast as I was in 1980.

I'll bet!

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Exactly what I needed to read. It's going to be a tough road to not be running sub-8s on the regular. But waaaaaay better than not running at all. 

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10 minutes ago, Carissa Liebowitz said:

Exactly what I needed to read. It's going to be a tough road to not be running sub-8s on the regular. But waaaaaay better than not running at all. 

I'm glad to read that it might help you. Let's start a support group. :)

Maybe it already exists. See you in Beerville. ;)

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Yeah, there's the Achilles thing, but much of this is heat related.  Everyone's pace is slower in the heat and humidity.  I bet you will be as fast or faster than last fall once cooler fall weather arrives. 

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27 minutes ago, Slow_Running said:

Yeah, there's the Achilles thing, but much of this is heat related.  Everyone's pace is slower in the heat and humidity.  I bet you will be as fast or faster than last fall once cooler fall weather arrives. 

It's definitely tough to figure out how much is weather and how out of running shape I am. I hope you're right. :)

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My first thought was "I guess if he's beyond the 'just happy to be running' phase, he's well on his way back."

You got there once before, you know how. You'll get back. 

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I'm blaming the summer heat too. It's not me getting old. I keep saying this...

Fall will be awesome. Repeat as necessary.

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Try not to hate that guy. His strength, fitness and endurance levels helped you crush your rehab and get back to business. 

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4 hours ago, BANGLE said:

I'm blaming the summer heat too. It's not me getting old. I keep saying this...

Fall will be awesome. Repeat as necessary.

Fall WILL be awesome. It always is. :)

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2 hours ago, CompulsiveRunner said:

Try not to hate that guy. His strength, fitness and endurance levels helped you crush your rehab and get back to business. 

This is some serious wisdom. That's so true and I didn't think of it. He might be a pretty OK guy after all. ;)

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The work the previous you did is still in there helping you now!  It will come back and then some.  Patience is typically not a strong suit of distance runners, but just keep showing up!

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20 hours ago, RunEatRalph said:

This is some serious wisdom. That's so true and I didn't think of it. He might be a pretty OK guy after all. ;)

And he's one hell of a nightclub singer.

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It's not easy. Frustrating. I've been fortunate to have a little voice in my head in tough times, "It could be worse." And that has helped me many times.

You'll get there. I've just never seen a fast way to get fast.

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Just enjoying a good wine myself on my flight home from Sydney...oh ok gotcha. Yeah wait until my age. I ain’t ever gonna catch that guy!

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