I love you but I need a break.
We’ve been spending an awful lot of time together over the last few months and I find myself drained and in need of some Elizabeth time. I don’t want you to think that this has anything to do with you or with our relationship. I still love you and I’m still going to take you to that big event this weekend just like I promised. It’s just that after that, I need some time on my own.
If I’m being honest, it feels like back in 2015. We had gone through our longest race ever together and I think after that we started up again too quickly. Do you remember that? Around January and February? It felt like we were just going through the motions. We were so used to being together that we didn’t notice how much we were smothering each other. Then, early March, we almost broke up. I was hurting and the quack chiropractor told me you were no good for me. That you’d ruin my hip. I spent weeks in therapy over it. That got me nowhere until the ortho told me that the chiro was just dead wrong.
I know. I know. I was wrong for listening to someone who spoke so ill of you without speaking to you about it. But do you remember how it felt, being together after that? We were so happy. So fast. Every run was a joy. It felt like our first time all over again. Like we were a couple of teens in puppy love.
And then, you pushed too much and I got hurt again. Was the PF to get me back for listening to the chiro? I guess it doesn’t matter now so long as we both learn from our past. No relationship is perfect. We’ve both done things we regret.
So, what I guess I’m saying is that I want to avoid hurting each other in the future the way we did in the past. I think after NY, I’m going to just chill by myself. Maybe see the gym again. We’ll still hang but no formal events for a bit. Then, when we’re both ready, we’ll be so much better for it. Us. Our relationship.
I know it might be hard but believe me, I’m doing this for us.