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Trying again to restart running and this past year

AlliKate

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Hi new Loop ! I had fallen out of the   Loop for the last year or so . Its been a long year . Plus I haven ' t been running . But the energy of this new space is exciting and I ' m hoping I ' ll keep coming back to read and post regularly (- ish ). 

 

This year has been ... rough . The biggest thing was last November my dad was diagnosed with cancer .  I spent about 5 months driving 40 minutes to the hospital almost every day to see him . I ' ll spare everyone the details but he quickly got worse and died in March . That   was much faster than any of us expected and it was really hard to watch my dad go through everything before he passed . And just not something I was prepared to go through in my late 20s . Since then I ' ve been learning about how grief affects me , so that ' s something . Grief is hard and confusing .

 

 

But for some good news , I got married in May !

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That was fun , except when it started pouring right before what was supposed to be an outdoor ceremony . But it still turned out just fine . Also Charlie just forced himself in to the guys   photos because he ' s just one of the guys obviously . It is my favorite .

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We went on a low - key honeymoon and then I really started getting back into working . I was lucky enough to do minimal work when my dad was sick . I could not concentrate on grad school and my boss and advisor were very nice about it . This has definitely pushed back when I ' ll probably finish my PhD but that ' s ok . This summer I had a few good months of working on my getting my first first - author paper out ( its still not out though ). Lately work has not been going great but just gotta push through and hope things get a little better soon I guess .

My mental and physical health have also   not been great . I ' m working on it . Been going to talk therapy and been seeing doctors trying to figure out the physical part . Doctors appointments can be quite frustrating but I won ' t go into that . 

So that ' s the main things . Oh plus my dog Charlie tore his second ( out of two ) ACL and had knee surgery almost a year to the day after the same surgery on the other knee last year . Really weird coincidence . So the recovery added some stress that is finally dissipating since he is getting closer to healed each day . And he is all out of knees to tear so fingers crossed he won ' t need another surgery for a long time .

And so my running partner has been sidelined since July . I ' ve tried to start running again a few times but each time the runs were mostly horrible , being pretty out of shape and having extremely tight calf muscles . I stopped each time after a handful of runs when my foot would start feeling too tight , since PF is what stopped my running way back in the summer of 2015 . I ' ve been keeping up with my stretches and exercises and rolling my feet recently trying to keep that at bay !

Last week I went to the running store in town and got new shoes . I liked them better than the new version of the shoes I had been wearing . Since then I ' ve done a whole 2 runs ( well run / walks with lots of walking !) So I ' ve got a good streak going   :P. But the best part is that my legs have not felt nearly as tight with these new shoes ! Could be extra stretching too but I also have worn the shoes for a few of my daily dog walks and my calves are much less tight walking the hills around my house !  I am liking these shoes ! 

 

My plans are hopeful but flexible . In the last 2 years   I ' ve done I think three 5K ' s , not all - out by any means . My last big run was the slog that was the 50K at Bandera .

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That feels like so long ago . I miss doing stuff like that . I would love to be able go slog in the Texas mud for hours right now .

My run on Saturday was in perfect fall weather , 50 - some degrees , bright blue sky , and it went well . Afterward I was standing in my backyard and it seemed like so many beautiful fall days in years past when I would be running 20 miles to train for a marathon , or getting up before the sun to go run a trail race . I want to get back there . Or as close to that as I can get . I ' m not exactly the same person I was when I joined the Loop . Running brings me joy but will probably not be as big a part of my identity as it used to be .   I ' ll see where my body and my schedule takes me . Maybe I ' ll only have it in me to run short distances and I ' m hoping that after so long away I ' ll be able to appreciate being able to do that much . But who knows maybe I could fit in running a half or farther . I ' ll just have to wait and see ! 

 

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What a difficult year you ' ve had , AK . I ' m so sorry about your dad . I hope you are beginning to heal , but having lost a parent myself , I know it can take a long time . Be gentle with yourself and find your joy - whatever it looks and feels like .  < 3

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Great to get an update from you ! I hope those new kicks make it possible for you to enjoy running again !

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AlliKate , I am sorry about the loss of your Dad . I can ' t imagine how hard that must be . It ' s definitely been a stressful year .  

Congratulations on the marriage !   I love the dog in the picture . He definitely belongs there .  

I ' m seeing a common thread in many of these first posts :   Haven ' t been running , but want to get back to it .   Miss the joy of long runs , hoping to enjoy the short runs .   Yep , yep and yep .  

Nothing beats new shoes , or gear in general .   Sounds like you are doing really good at listening to your body .   Best of luck and I look forward to your future posts !  

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Sorry to hear about your dad Alli ...

Great to hear from you again ! Again , congratulations on your wedding ! Getting back to running is a long process . Just keep listening to your body and everything will fall back into place ...

Let us know how you get on ! :) 

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What an update - sorry to hear about your dad , but congrats on the wedding .

You don ' t have to always be doing high miles . Long walks with hubby and / or Charlie are good . Running will be there when you ' re ready ( physically & mentally ) for it .

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You were such a beautiful bride !! And Charlie belonged in at least a few pics for sure ... he ’ s family . 

Glad the news shoes are helping . Here ’ s to a great comeback !!!

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Sorry to hear about your dad , that ' s always a terrible blow . Congrats on the marriage , and good luck sorting work and PhD and married life and running and Charlie and everything else into the right balance . It ' s never easy . 

A wise man once said " It ' s always the shoes ". Looks like he was right again . Hope we get to follow the comeback . 

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Not sure what you are studying but getting that first first - author paper is a great accomplishment ! I found running while in the midst of a PhD program in the sciences and just ran to de - stress -- I knew nothing about training plans or goal races . It doesn ' t matter if you have to restart a hundred times ... once a runner , always a runner . I look forward to hearing about your comeback !

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That is A LOT to handle .  I can understand why you ' re running has taken a bit of an aside .  I know you can get back at it and grow back up to whatever you desire .  Congrats on getting hitched !  Now , let ' s all support you in this amazing comeback : P .

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I ' m so sorry to hear about your dad ' s passing .

Go easy on yourself though - everyone ' s healing period ( s ) are different .

My dad was diagnosed in September of 2010 and passed away 3 very fast months later . Then 4 months later , in April , one of my brothers - our eldest sibling - was killed in a motorcycle accident . A few years after that , mom was diagnosed - we lost her in December of 2014 . I ' m just now coming out of my funk ! 

But on the positive side - what   beautiful wedding photos ! And I love that there was one with Charlie ! I hope he heals up good as new so you two can start some running therapy really soon !!! Take care of yourself !!!   :x 

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You are so right , grief is hard and confusing . I ' m so sorry that you have to experience it , and I ' m sending you so much love .  I know how hard it is to lose a parent , and how hard it is to go through every new milestone without them . But gosh your wedding pictures are absolutely stunning ! Congrats ! I ' m hoping to keep popping into this new loop and looking forward to following your comeback . 

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3 hours ago, DrWhiskers said:

Not sure what you are studying but getting that first first - author paper is a great accomplishment ! I found running while in the midst of a PhD program in the sciences and just ran to de - stress -- I knew nothing about training plans or goal races .

I ' m studying biostatistics ! And running is definitely a good stress reliever , I can tell a difference just in the last two weeks since I restarted !

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3 hours ago, meowmom said:

Go easy on yourself though - everyone ' s healing period ( s ) are different .

My dad was diagnosed in September of 2010 and passed away 3 very fast months later . Then 4 months later , in April , one of my brothers - our eldest sibling - was killed in a motorcycle accident . A few years after that , mom was diagnosed - we lost her in December of 2014 . I ' m just now coming out of my funk ! 

Oh my that is a lot to go through . I ' m so sorry you had to . I know there is not a timeline on grief and it has not been very long so its going to take more time for the funk to go away . Thanks for your comment < 3

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I am so sorry to hear about your Dad !   Congratulations on your marriage and your return to running !!

 

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