Hi new Loop ! I had fallen out of the Loop for the last year or so . Its been a long year . Plus I haven ' t been running . But the energy of this new space is exciting and I ' m hoping I ' ll keep coming back to read and post regularly (- ish ).
This year has been ... rough . The biggest thing was last November my dad was diagnosed with cancer . I spent about 5 months driving 40 minutes to the hospital almost every day to see him . I ' ll spare everyone the details but he quickly got worse and died in March . That was much faster than any of us expected and it was really hard to watch my dad go through everything before he passed . And just not something I was prepared to go through in my late 20s . Since then I ' ve been learning about how grief affects me , so that ' s something . Grief is hard and confusing .
But for some good news , I got married in May !
That was fun , except when it started pouring right before what was supposed to be an outdoor ceremony . But it still turned out just fine . Also Charlie just forced himself in to the guys photos because he ' s just one of the guys obviously . It is my favorite .
We went on a low - key honeymoon and then I really started getting back into working . I was lucky enough to do minimal work when my dad was sick . I could not concentrate on grad school and my boss and advisor were very nice about it . This has definitely pushed back when I ' ll probably finish my PhD but that ' s ok . This summer I had a few good months of working on my getting my first first - author paper out ( its still not out though ). Lately work has not been going great but just gotta push through and hope things get a little better soon I guess .
My mental and physical health have also not been great . I ' m working on it . Been going to talk therapy and been seeing doctors trying to figure out the physical part . Doctors appointments can be quite frustrating but I won ' t go into that .
So that ' s the main things . Oh plus my dog Charlie tore his second ( out of two ) ACL and had knee surgery almost a year to the day after the same surgery on the other knee last year . Really weird coincidence . So the recovery added some stress that is finally dissipating since he is getting closer to healed each day . And he is all out of knees to tear so fingers crossed he won ' t need another surgery for a long time .
And so my running partner has been sidelined since July . I ' ve tried to start running again a few times but each time the runs were mostly horrible , being pretty out of shape and having extremely tight calf muscles . I stopped each time after a handful of runs when my foot would start feeling too tight , since PF is what stopped my running way back in the summer of 2015 . I ' ve been keeping up with my stretches and exercises and rolling my feet recently trying to keep that at bay !
Last week I went to the running store in town and got new shoes . I liked them better than the new version of the shoes I had been wearing . Since then I ' ve done a whole 2 runs ( well run / walks with lots of walking !) So I ' ve got a good streak going . But the best part is that my legs have not felt nearly as tight with these new shoes ! Could be extra stretching too but I also have worn the shoes for a few of my daily dog walks and my calves are much less tight walking the hills around my house ! I am liking these shoes !
My plans are hopeful but flexible . In the last 2 years I ' ve done I think three 5K ' s , not all - out by any means . My last big run was the slog that was the 50K at Bandera .
That feels like so long ago . I miss doing stuff like that . I would love to be able go slog in the Texas mud for hours right now .
My run on Saturday was in perfect fall weather , 50 - some degrees , bright blue sky , and it went well . Afterward I was standing in my backyard and it seemed like so many beautiful fall days in years past when I would be running 20 miles to train for a marathon , or getting up before the sun to go run a trail race . I want to get back there . Or as close to that as I can get . I ' m not exactly the same person I was when I joined the Loop . Running brings me joy but will probably not be as big a part of my identity as it used to be . I ' ll see where my body and my schedule takes me . Maybe I ' ll only have it in me to run short distances and I ' m hoping that after so long away I ' ll be able to appreciate being able to do that much . But who knows maybe I could fit in running a half or farther . I ' ll just have to wait and see !