There’s no punchline. I just needed a title. Bear with me, I haven’t been writing regularly in years and I am a bit out of practice.
So I started going to the gym again. It’s in the building next door and usually Erika and I are the only ones there. They have everything I need except for an ab swing and ab twistie machine which I can make do without.
The gym is a little easier for me mentally these days. Running is hard. And depressing. I gained a ton of weight and it is slowing me down. So I am constantly struggling and feeling disappointed about my runs.
The gym, though, is purely a celebration of my body. It’s time inside myself. Feeling myself move. An experiment. If I do this what muscle is working? Should that be the muscle that is working or is it stepping in for some other muscle that is slacking off? What muscles are weak and need attention? What muscles are strong and good at their job?
It is one of the few things that I do and enjoy where I feel completely uncompetitive. Uncompetitive with myself and uncompetitive with others. I just enjoy it.
They have all these things that I never used before, as well. Medicine balls, and TRX straps (is that what you call them?) these long weighted bars that I am not sure what their purpose is, and a heavy bag, a tilted bench for crunches on an angle, and another that I am assuming is for preacher curls (but must be for something else too, no?)
I am greatly looking forward to figuring them all out, working up to them, and adding them to my routine. For now, I am back to basics - low weight, focus on form.
Back to basics seems thematic for me right now… huh…